Friday, May 25, 2007

The last month has been insane. I’m going back to therapy and things are getting a little better, I still have problems sleeping, but I know that eventually it will get better.

It seems like the SO is leaving, and the countdown started, within a couple of months there has to be a final answer of what is going to happen between us. I’m on this turning point of my life, things at work are good and it could be better, depending how hard I push, at this point I can decide what my future will be and I’m not sure if I know what I want. I want to be able to sleep in peace, I want to feel passionate about something else besides work and I want to feel like I’m making somebody happy.

I’ll write about the Viacom situation soon, I just wanted to have a post in order to come back with some explanation.

I’m still reading a lot of blogs, commenting as much as my limited time allows me, I definitely have to learn from a lot of people out there how to be a good blogger!

A lot has happened since that last post, including me having a 2 day affair with a person from my past that I haven’t seen in at least 9 years and that we were never involved in any kind of sexual way in the past. I still don’t know how it happened, but it did, and it was awesome and it was horrible because it remind me of what has been dying with the SO, passion!

Therapy is the last hope, I decided I cannot keep on changing my life around to make other people happy without getting anything back in return. It is time for me to be happy, it is time to enjoy life!

Plus it is 90 degrees and it’s the beginning of Fleet week in NYC….oh and I’m officially 31!