Friday, September 23, 2005

Things change, that's a fact. But why? Why the hell passion has to die? why do we have to give up? Is it just human nature? I cannot deal with that! it is just not me. Everything I do I try to do it with passion. I work my ass off because I love my job, and I love it because it gives me the chance to do something with all my passion going beyond the limit. I'm kind of a fantic of The Apprentice", one of my friends just hates the show, he says he cannot stand all those "overachievers". Dude! I'm one of them, I honestly don't think I'm like this because I want power or money (but who doesn't want a little more of both), but because it keeps me alive. Of course it is not the only thing that keeps me alive! it is not the reason why I wake up every morning, but if I spend 9 or 10 hours here I might as well enjoy it and try to have a good environment for the people that work for/around me.

I do have tha passion in relationships (and sex of course!). But the big difference is that a relationship involves two people and one person's passion might not be enough to keep things alive. At the end that person is going to feel cheated and exhausted, and negativity might take over. Is there a soultion? Earlier today I wrote to somebody that communication is the key. Later on I was wondering if communication could help even if the other person doesn't change. I'm afraid the answer is not, which just sucks!

I know people are going to hate this, but this is the reason why people have affairs. it might sound like a lame ass excuse, but just like I love my job, I enjoy sex! and I want to feel that passion. Is cheating acceptable? I would say yes, if the boundaries are clear. I read a couple of blogs about it and apparently things can work out if you enter into it with an adult mind and with a clear idea of what you want.

Me? I want passion!

"John Milton: Freedom, baby... is never having to say you're sorry. " From The Devil's Advocate

Monday, September 12, 2005

We all know what happened the first six days. Now we all are living the eternal seventh day.. that day where God was too tired and decided to retire and relax. That's where we came and started to enjoy life.

THis is my second blog, the first one was eliminated in a moment of rage and desperation. Do I regret it? Just a lil' bit. It was fun while it lasted but it became a major source of pain. It's gone and now it is time to start all over again. I was going to write about me here, but I guess it makes more sense to update my profile. Here I can explain the new username (and no, I won't tell you the old one, that my friends will be my secret!). El Cuervo means The Raven (probably you knew that or you could find out about it). Yes, it has something to do with Poe's poem, but also because the poor bird has a very bad reputation regardless of its innocence. Unlike me, who has a very good reputation regardless of my so no innocent life. I'm not evil, I'm just human.

I enjoy the good things in life, I enjoy my job and most of my life. But of course there are things that fuck with my happiness. I'm not really into the whole cahin and tag stuff, but I think it is just fair to write once and for all my 101 things (after all I want to share more of this life with some fellow bloggers out there). So hang on tight and here we go!:

1.- I'm 29, but I can still drink like a 21 year old
2.- I was born outside the US, just came to the states 6 years ago
3.- I love this country, specially what it stands for, but it worries me that the religious right is killing that freedom that built and made this country as strong as it is
4.- I do love my country, I didn;t leave to find a better life, I had a good life, I just came to study and explore the world
5.- I stayed because I fell in love
6.- I was wrong, I wasn't in love but I don't regret staying in the US
7.- I LOVE my job, and I kick ass at it!
8.- Yes, I might appear as cocky but I don't see anything wrong on taking credit for what I do
9.- I have very few good friends, but I know lots of people
10.- I've been in love twice
11.- The first woman I truly loved followed me to America, I didn't ask her to do it.
12.- She's married now. We chat often but I haven't seen her in almost 3 years
13.- She's in the top 3 best sex ever... adn we did it for 4 years
14.- I think there's a difference between having sex, fucking and making love
15.- Although making love is better, very few things beat a good fucking!
16.- I love music. My Ipod is the most extreme melting pot ever! From Metallica to Sinatra, from Bob Marley to Pearl Jam, from the Doors to latin music
17.- I LOVE NYC, and honestly think that everybody should experience this city at least once in the lives
18.- I cannot understand how people from other regions can be afraid to come to NYC.
19.- I don't understand either how Ioha can get the same amount of money to protect themsleves from terrorism as NYC (no offense to Ioha)
20.- I consider myself a Democrat, but would vote for Rudy in a second
21.- I would NEVER vot for Arnold... California, what the hell where you thinking????
22.- I agree a little bit with Kanye... but I would change the phrase to W doesn't care about poor people regardless of the color
23.- I'm blessed I'm well above the poverty line
24.- I still need more money!!!!
25.- I like to live the good life, I work hard, I play hard
26.- I couldn't be a vegetarian even if I tried, I LOVE meat too much
27.- but I cannot stand fish
28.- I like to drink, although I cannot drink as much as I used to (Scotch, I love Scotch!)
29.- I party like crazy in college, and I don't regret a single thing
30.- I only party like that a couple nights a year, and it's plenty
31.- Although I don't think I have a thing for feet, I can be easily turn off by a woman with ugly toes
32.- It might have something to do with the teaching from an exlover. She told me that if a woman takes care of something as insignificant as her toe nails, then the chances are that she takes good care of everything else
33.- The above statement usually is true
34.- The second person I've been in love told me "I Love you" after i sucked her toes
35.- it was our second date and we were having sex
36.- I love boobs! all sizes and shapes
37.- I lost my virginity at 15
38.- It was a good experience and it bothers me that not everybody can say the same thing, the first time should be special and should be remembered in a positive way
39.- I only had sex with one virgin, although I had the chance 3 other times. I didn't want to be an asshole the other 3 times. The only time I did it was a good thing... she has good memories
40.- I had sex with more than 20 women, which I don't think makes me a male-whore
41.- Somebody thinks it does. She asked me one day, I was stupid enough to tel her the real number... she cried for days,a nd I still get shit for it
42.- I was only her second guy. She only did it once with the first guy
43.- I have 2 Bachelor degrees
44.- I didn't party when I was getting the second one, I pay for it and I got a 3.9 GPA
45.- In October I will see U2 live at the MSG. That will pretty much complete the list of bands I wanted to see live.
46.- I think I'm adding McCartney
47.- I saw GN'R twice. The old band was so much better.
48.- I thought about sucide back in my late teens
49.- I'm glad I didn't...
50.- I have a thing for older women (nothing extreme!)
51.- I think they are smart and extremely sexy
52.- The biggest age difference was when I was 21, she was 37
53.- I dated younger women... Although it wasn't bad, the results were more negative than positive
54.- I'm a sucker for lingerie
55.- I like the Jets...not the Giants
56.- I don't care about baseball that much. I went to a game in Shea stadium and will plan a visit to Yankees Satdium next year
57.- I've been unfaithful. I'm not really good at the hole monogamy thing.
58.- I think is possible to just have sex without involving feelings
59.- I owe a little too much on my credit cards
60.- My love for gadgets must have something to do with it
61.- I had an MP3 player wayyyyyyyy before the Ipod was even out
62.- I download music from Napster and I didnt feel bad at all
63.- I stop downloading free stuff because of spyware and viruses, not because of my guilt
64.- Hurting people makes me feel guilty
65.- I tend to do it more often than I would like
66.- Both women that I've been in love called me "Mr. Perfect" when they get mad
67.- I do think I'm pretty close to perfect...
68.- if you read the other 67 you can tell i'm not perfect
69.- Love it! Love it! Love it! (I hope you get this one)
70.- I was raise catholic. I even went to cahtolic school my whole life (including college)
71.- I like the idea of catholicism, i hate the Church as an institution... Life's too unfair and they don't seem to care (plus the whole sex scandal!!!)
72.- I want my son to be catholic, less the guilt and the obligation of going to church
73.- Jesus was an awesome human being... he would be a new yorker if he came back
74.- My parents still live together in a happy marriage
75.- I don't think I'm going to have a marriage like that
76.- I don't have good feelings for my older brother, I think he's a manipulative, irresponsible, immature 33 year old
77.- I don't want anything bad to happen to him, but he needs something that shakes his life for good
78.- I love my sister... but she's also immature as hell
79.- She can be daddy's little girl only when she wants something
80.- yes, I'm a middle child, but I'm the only normal one
81.- I skipped one year on elementary school, so all my friends are older than me
82.- That explained why I was drinking and smoking when I was 13
83.- I quit smoking at 17
84.- I only smoke when I drinka lot
85.- Sometimes I still smoke other things
86.- I don't do any other drugs anymore
87.- i think pot should be legal
88.- and other legal drugs should be banned
89.- As Chris Rock said, I'm liberal for some issues, and conservative for others
90.- I paid for sex... it wasn't my money and it was TJ
91.- I love strip clubs! but I would never go by myself
92.- I had a 3some once
93.- It was great, but definately not as great as the fantasy every man has
94.- Like Frankie said, I did it my way (most of the time)
95.- I read periodically a lot of blogs
96.- I'm an ungrateful ass who doesn't comment on those blogs
97.- That is going to change
98.- I will update this blog often
99.- and will add pictures
100.- I consider myself a happy person
101.- I love quotes (movies, music, people), so u might see lots of them around!

"Tyler Durden: This is your life and it's ending one minute at a time."